~MoO MoO~: She KNOWS it's not her fault...

Wednesday, November 30, 2005
「 love was in the air, 10:36 PM 」

Was just reading a friend's entry. If the girl has already put her very best for the relationship and it still doesn't work out, according to her, the girl should not blame herself. Yeah, honey, i agree. The girl should not blame herself.
But sometimes, she KNOWS its not her fault. She doesn't blame herself. She just can't help it but still be depressed. She hasn't been rewarded for her efforts, the efforts she put into trying to develop the rs. She has also lost the trust she used to have in men and because of this, every single day is a constant struggle for her. To trust once again and risk getting hurt? Or to not trust and never get the happiness she so badly wants? And it seriously doesn't help when most of the guys can't understand why women continue to mope so much after the rs.
Yeah... women constantly seek approval from men. They get their confidence from the men. The more guys turning their heads, giving her their attention, the more confident the girl gets. I guess it's an age old thing. I myself can't answer why they do that. Sometimes, i think it's just the way women were brought up.
I'll elaborate more when i can organise my thoughts. I'm a little shaken by the entry. Reminds me of what i used to be like. Now, i truly know it's not my fault. He was the jerk. BUT, my confidence is still not back. I still seek for another guy, for another person's approval, for a person who will truly love me. Why do women find it so hard to break out of trying to please men? Why do I find it so hard as well?

YYY